December 8, 2003

• Today was an interesting day.  It started up with me waking up from a dream about Nyako...Watching her get sick & suffer like she did in real life...It wasn't exactly what happened in reality, but that dream was damn close.  Work was interesting...saw some unusual cases, did some good work.  Then I came home with the intention of getting some stuff ready for a spell I was gonna cast out at Orient Point.  While I was home getting everything ready, I had trick-shot billiards on TV (ESPN2)...One of the contestants looked A LOT like Keith Doug.  He had his profile, his face structure...It was bizarre!  Why on Earth are they trying to contact me?  They're trying to tell me something "& I can't figure it out.  I'll bet they're smashing their heads against a wall somewhere saying, "Why the hell doesn't she get it?!"  Sorry guys...I never said I was smart    I know this will sound crazy, but honestly, I don't care what anyone thinks I know what I'm about to say is true.  Be skeptical or even laugh if you choose, but I'm saying this b/c I haven't really told anyone.

  
  

  Samhein (pro. Sow-wen), aka Halloween, is the time when the 2 worlds (here & the afterlife) are closest.  The day before, I felt someone tap me on my back, right where my memorial tattoo to Keith Doug is.  I turned around, and no one was there, not even close to me.  I wondered if it might be him visiting me again.  On Samhein itself, I was in surgery, pretty close to a wall, with no one close to me & someone grabbed my ass.  It was Keith Doug.  He was just saying hi & playing with me a little.  We talked briefly, and he went off.  It was great, though.  His passing changed & strengthened our relationship.  Neither of us realized how special our relationship was until he died.  Soon after the accident, I was euthanising a suffering dog.  I told the dog that he needed to go, that his passing would be best.  With that, Keith Doug told me, "I needed to go."  I know I probably sound like a crazy person.  I wouldn't say it or believe it if I hadn't experienced it.  No, I'm not schizophrenic, hearing voices in my head.  I have recently become more in tune with spirits/souls/ghosts.  I've seen them, felt their presence, and (obviously, according to this), began communicating with them.  Mainly with Keith Doug, but I also saw a ghost: a soldier from the battle of Culloden in Scotland.  I felt him...I must have stepped where he did, and then he appeared to me a couple of days later.

  
  

  I know I'm rambling & I'm sure it sounds stupid.  If you don't like it, don't agree with it, feel the need to make fun, then please do me a favor & just don't respond.  I'm not here looking for approval, I'm just trying to get something off my chest.  I don't care what anyone else says or thinks, this is mine (the experience & xanga).  Sigh...This is so discombobulated & weird sounding, I know it.  But it is important to me, and I've been wanting to share it for a while.  Welp, I'm gonna shut up now anyway.  I'm gonna shower & try to figure out the meaning behind the dream & Keith Doug's twin 

  
  

  Tattoo #12 day after tomorrow!  Wohoo!  I'm siked!  Can't wait.....

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