January 7, 2004
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God am I sore today. My muscles seem to be getting weaker and my arthritis worse & spread to new parts every day. Something is terribly wrong. I need to get a neurologist ASAP. I need to know what's going on with my body. It just doesn't make sense. Being painful & focusing on this has me thinking quite a bit today. About my mortality, the life I've led, and the legacy of my life.
Personally, I believe we all leave legacies with the love & energy we share & give & put out. Our lives are really based our experiences, perceptions, and most importantly our friends & family. To me, family is not defined by blood, but by love. I consider everyone in my life to be a part of my family, in one way or another. My life is a reflection of those people & the love & support they've given me. My life's goal has been to reciprocate what has been given to me. I try, I know I'm not perfect. Far from it. But I try. Every day, I try my hardest to give & love & protect the way I have been in the past. Words can never tell people how much they mean to you. Gestures help, but emotions are so much stronger than any word or flower or even money. Whether I die now or 100 years from now, I don't want people to focus on me. I am the result of my experiences & people. I want people to see that I would have been nothing without them. Each person, animal, spirit I have encountered has been my foundation, what has gotten me this far. One cannot say "I've done this" or "I got that" without help. It's true. Although I got myself through my divorce, there is no way that would have been possible without the kidness that was extended to me as I hid from ex husband, or the unconditional love my family showed me by welcoming me home & helping me to take care of the legal proceedings. Without all those people, I would have not been able to stay safe, come home or get legally divorced. And that is just one example from the many events of my life. People come & go in our lives, but they all impact us in one way or another. Even though we may lose touch, the love remains. The power of your actions remain. You are never forgotten. To tell all of you I love you is a start, but it's not enough. It's never enough. Just know that I thank Goddess, God, the Moon & Stars, the Earth every day for each of you. You are all wonderful beautiful souls. I cannot thank you enough for all that you've done or all that you are. I would not be where I am today without each of you. Thank you.
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I wish more people in the world think like you & I do about life & love. It would be a much sweeter place to live.
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You are so very right. Love is all there is, love is all we need. It's just that most of us don't know how to love. Or we're afraid of it. It's the force that rules the Earth. It's the energy that we're all made of. And we spend our lives running from it, or trying to change it to suit our baser instincts. It can be so sad, but it only takes one person to start the change. Like a ripple on a pond. The waves from one little pebble can reach the opposite shore. I can feel the waves from your pebble coming in now. Thank you. Much love to you, WitchyWoman7.
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