January 12, 2004
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I woke up this morning to snow. Yuck!
I've decided to hold off on my errands till tomorrow after work. I don't mind driving in the snow, but today I just can't bothered So, I'm gonna read, I'm currently doing my weekly facial, and just being unproductive
I'm not afraid to "come out" to my family. I just want to be sure that my mom understands that my past relationships with men were not covers. I know she knows what being bi-sexual means, I just want her to grasp the fact that I like everybody
I'm probably underestimating her.
Akhenaten has been VERY mushy & lovey today. I don't mind
She's been in my lap for about an hour now. She keeps curling up & falling asleep in my lap & arms. It's adorable This morning she was running around like the energizer kitten She is so entertaining!
I haven't told "Deer" who she is, yet. I'm kinda nervous to do so. I don't want to scare her off
I don't want to make her uncomfortable or feel pressured. I feel like a ballon that's about to burst: I'm dying inside to tell her, but I want to respect her, her privacy, etc. I've left certain things out or hidden or changed certain details in order to protect her & her privacy. She does read my xanga entries, and I don't want her to feel like all eyes on her, here. I even e-mailed Oceana about talking to "Deer." I wanted to know if she got a feeling about how/when to tell her, how she'd react, etc. I know everything will happen the way it's meant to. But because someone else is involved, I want to make sure I do it right. I don't want to hurt, scare or offend "Deer."
Well, I should go continue to be unproductive
Take care, all. Stay warm! Blessed be.
Comments (2)
Quiet days at home are a blessing! Besides, how can you get anything done with a purring kitten in your lap? Why would you want to even get out of that chair!? *smiling* btw- Do you have any pictures of Akhenaten? I'd love to see her!
As for "Deer"... I can't begin to imagine how she will react, but she must have some inkling as to how you feel. Surely you have shown her in some ways? Instead of worrying, maybe you should give her the benefit of the doubt...
In the meantime, Oceana sounds like a great resource helping you to see your way through this!
Have a relaxing day!
adios!
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wow you have quite the emotional agenda but it sounds like you are dealing with it well-my thoughts will be with you
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