February 15, 2004
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I'm actually at my mom's right now, we're gonna be heading out in a little bit. I'm gonna do treatments, then my mom, Dick & I are going to have dinner, then I'm going to the wake. I'm dressed & ready to go. It'll be interesting trying to manuever around the hospital dressed like this
I heard from "Deer" today. She got the flowers & loved them, which is great. As long as she appreciated them. Her kids (who got a box of chocolates from me which they apprently loved) were really keeping her on her toes today, so we didn't get into a "where do we go from here" conversation. That's fine. I'm just happy that she's happy.
Getting kinda nervous about tomorrow. I'm just so shy & modest & self-conscious. I'm sure it'll be fine, but I can't help but get a little nervous & embarassed. Although, as a photographer, Stephen has seen many other women topless & naked before. I guess it just feels different 'cause it's me. And maybe, too, because there was no official closure to whatever happened between us. I don't REALLY know how he feels about me. Tomorrow will be the first time I see him in over a month. I'm sure it'll be just fine. Right now, I'm just anxious & nervous & afraid it's going to be awkward & embarassing.
I should go before someone comes down & sees all this. I love my mother to death, but she's pretty old fashioned about things (I always call her Donna Reed without the dress or the vacuum). She still does not know that I'm Wiccan or Bi, certain things are best left unsaid with her. She still denies what happened with my father, but that's a whole other story
So, anyhoo. I'm off. Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday evening. I'll probably check in tomorrow night after the photoshoot & dinner with Pam. Goodnight, all. Blessed be!
Comments (2)
:bighug: Hope everything went well for you .
Thanky ou so much for the wonderful message you left me, Have a nice day hunni:)
~Dovie~
I completely understand about your Mom. I'm in the same boat. You just don't tell them anything, it's so much easier that way.
So now the pressure is really on. You're waiting to get some sort of sign from Deer. Good luck, Sweets. I know that's what you want, but I also know you're only going to get what you need. I'm hoping for you that what you need is also what you're hoping for. I've got my fingers crossed for you. Besides, how could she not like you? You're great!
And here's hoping the pics turn out sizzlin.' I've often thought of having pics like that made, just never got around to it. There just never seemed to be anyone there when I had it in my head to do it. (Although, I did do a few miutes of video with Rollo once. That looked a lot better than I ever thought it would. *evil grin*) Maybe I'll tell you about that sometime.
Love to ya~
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