This is a kind of credo, if you will.  My beliefs & what I stand for.

I am a Witch.  I believe in a Goddess and a God, that there cannot be creation without male AND female.  I believe that life came from the sea, and sprawled onto the Earth and the sky.  I believe in evolution.  I believe that we as humans, need to get re-in-tuned with the Earth.  I believe that the “spawling” American society is killing our naturtal resources and is haurting the Earth in unnecessary ways.  I believe that the Earth can provide us with all of our basic needs.  Along those lines, I believe in herbal medicine, as well as chemical medicine.  When used in combination, you get the strongest effects, and a reduction in the side-effects.  I believe in loving and respecting all forms of life.  They are all just as sacred, and vital to the life cycle.  I believe that all life forms are connected, and that we are all teachers, students and guides for each other.  It does not matter what form the soul has taken on, we can all learn from each other and help each other.  I believe in loving people for who they are, not their appearance.  I believe that judging other people is wrong.  You do not always know another person’s thought process or circumstance, they are trying to the best they can with the tools they have and what they know.  I also believe that each person is entitled to their own thoughts, opinions and beliefs, and that all beliefs should be respected and treated equally.  Opinions and beliefs are never wrong, they just are.  And for that, they should be respected.  Along that same line of thought, I do not believe that one “religion” or belief system is right over another.  I think that there are many different paths to divinity, and that we as humans do not have the full capacity to truly understand divinity, the after-life, etc.  I think we can allk learn something from all religions.  I believe that in religious debate we often mistakenly switch the words believe and know.  They are 2 very different words.  As strong as a belief might be, one does not necessarily know.  That needs to be remembered.  I believe in a good, solid hand-shake.  I believe in keeping my word.  I follow the motto, “Death Before Dishonor” to the best of my ability each and every day.  I believe in Karma, that what you put out comes back to you.  I believe in energies and forces.  I do not believe in evil, but I believe that energies or people can be incorrect for each other.  My father was incorrect for me, but he was in my life, and had an impact on it, and now I must take that, heal that, and grow from that.  I believe that one should never stop growing or learning or challenging themself in every facet of life (physically, emotionally, intellectually, artistically, philosophically, etc.).  I believe there is so much more to life than getting caught up in petty arguements, or trends.  I believe in being yourself, an individual, making a statement with your life.  I believe that tattoos are good form of such self-expression, and that tattooed people should not be judged by the artwork they have chosen to display on their bodies.  I believe in a Yin and a Yang, a male and a female in all life forms, even people.  Each person has a masculine and a feminine side.  Sometimes one side is more developed than the other, but I believe they both exist within each of us.  I believe the internet is a great tool, but it is not a way of life.  I believe that modern technology has actually hurt the human race.  In modern times, a house that is 50 years old constantly needs work, yet the Ancient Egyptians with less “technology” were able to build structures and statues that have lasted millenia.  I believe this computer-and-convinience-driven society is a major factor in the problem with obesity in the American society.  I believe that people need to take responsibility for their actions, that includes sitting in front of the computer, eating poorly and not exercising.  I believe that all people are equal, that all strong points and weak points balance out and help to create the beautiful tapestry that is the human race.  I do not believe that one skin tone is better or superior than another, it is simply pigment.  If a calico cat is not better than a tabby, how is one human skin color better than another?  I believe in the military.  Not that people should be attacking each other, but in the honor, discipline and responsibility that comes with such work.  I believe in pacifissism.  I believe in respect.  I believe in love.  I believe in the beauty of all life forms, even the amoeba.  I believe that negativity stems from ignorance and insecurity.  I believe in appreciating everything I have, in truly recognizing just how blessed I really am.  I believe everything is cyclical, from the phases of the moon to the wheel of the year to our lives, everything is a cycle.  I believe that moon has power over us.  It is the only thing strong enough to have power over the sea: the moon commands/dictates the ebb and flow, no other force is powerful enough to control the sea like that.  It makes sense that such a strong force would have an effect on us.  I believe in balance and harmony, in every aspect of life, in all that we do and all that is around us.  I believe in hope an optimissim, in making people laugh.  Laughter truly is the best medicine, and hope is the only way to accomplish our wildest dreams.  I do not believe in holding back anything.  I believe in trying new things constantly.  I believe in living my own life, and letting others live theirs.  I believe this credo will never be finished, as I grow, so will it. 

Well, Mechanic Lauren should be renamed “Dumbass” Lauren.  On my way to work, the engine light came on.  I freaked.  Got to work, opened the hood, checked my dipstik (I was going over everything I could on my way over to try & “diagnose” the problem), DRY.  So, after work, I pour in 4 quarts of oil.  I screwed the cap on, and I thought it was tight enough.  Keep this in mind.  I continue to drive.  Light is STILL on.  Tranny is doing better, but not 100%, too.  Keep that in mind.  I drove back to the Smithaven mall b/c one earring from one of the pairs broke as soon as I put it on, so I needed to replace it.  I decide to stop at my old mechanic in Smithtown (now at least 1/2 hour from where I live).  They’re busy, but they need to see the car.  Ok.  Go to the mall, replace the earrings, talk to Lauren on the phone for a little while.  Go back to the mechanic.  He drove the car away (I actually started to fear he stole my car), comes back, pulls it into the bay.  Pops open the hood.  From the lobby, I could hear him screaming & cursing.  Hmmmmmmmm, I wonder to myself.  Remember that oil cap I THOUGHT I placed back on?  Apparently, not tight enough, cap is GONE & there’s oil ALL over my engine!  As for the tranny….Fluid is EMPTY, I’m leakin’ somewhere.  Long story short, my mom had to come & get me, drive me back to Manhasset, she took my grandmother’s car (thank god she’s in Fla.), and now I’m driving my mom’s god-awful car until I know what’s up with my Stratus.  May be the tranny itself, in which case it is under warranty.  If it’s just a hose, that’s easy.  But first, that poor guy has to clean off my entire motor because I’m the biggest ass this side of the Mississippi.  And he waited with me until my mom came, he stayed late!  This guy is so getting a big-ass tip from me. 

I should have known my day would turn sour.  I made a comment to a co-worker this morning about the waning moon & how bad shit happens then.  And this afternoon, at the end of my day, we were supposed to do orthopedic surgery on a rotti.  Well, Dr. Bitetto noticed that the right leg will need surgery too, since the dog seems to have recently torn her ACL on that leg.  Because both knees were going to require surgery (the left for today was supposed to be the same kind of surgery Akh needs), the owners can’t be bothered with it & they put the dog to sleep.  To say I was pissed off is an understatement.  My day started off ok, but it sure as hell ended poorly.

Speaking of knee surgeries, Akh is scheduled for Wed. March 3 for her first knee.  Because it is so close to her original spay date, I post-poned the spay until the end of march.  So, It’s 1st knee 3/3, spay 3/31.  Everyone, PLEASE send out love, support & positive energy for her.  She’s tiny & I worry about her.  This was the whole reason I took her, I knew this was coming & I just want her to be ok.

As for me…Besides all this crazy shit, here’s my life next couple of weeks (outside of work, that is)  Going out Friday night, dinner with Pam Saturday night.  Monday…Taxes!  Tuesday…Local Witches’ Meeting ( my first one!)….Week after that, Tues 3/2 Re-touch tattoo appointment, poss. dinner w/ Pam & her gang of crazy folk, Wed. 3/3 Akh’s knee surgery, poss. dinner w/ Pam & her gang of crazy folk.  Not to mention work, getting my car back, etc.  Plus, Stephen has more pics he wants to take.  <Insert loud, blood-curdeling scream here>  I prayed to Goddess & God this afternoon, I really can’t take all this craziness.  This is killing me.  Plus, I need to re-open my workman’s comp for the bite b/c my finger is SERIOUSLY fucked up.  As weird as this may sound, I’m almost hoping they’d amputate it.  It never feels “right” any more…I’m uncomfortable most of the time, and if you look at my pinky wrong, it hurts like hell.  So now, I have to call Workman’s comp, talk to them & schedule a time with a hand Doc.  Crazy, crazy shit. 

It’s 10:30.  Jesus christ!  I have to go handwash some clothes, just enough to get me through till Sunday, but it’s one more thing I have to do b/c I couldn’t get my laundry done today.  Goddamnit!  Man, I am exhausted, too.  This whole “living like an insane person” really wears ya out, ya know?  Oh, the worst part about all this?  My Loreena cd’s are in MY car!    Damn.  Oh well.  Ok, world, I REALLY need to do that laundry before I just fall asleep right here.  Goodnight, hope everyone else’s day was better!  Take it easy, blessed be, all!

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Addendum, Thurs. 9:30 am:

My car is ready!  Just a loose hose!  He did a tranny flush, gave me new wiperblades & the care is like new!  I’m leaving now so my mom & I can go pick it up!  Wohoo! 

Hello Xanga-world.  I had a great day today, surprisingly enough    Work was ok…Nothing too exciting in terms of cases.  Although, Gini pulled me aside regarding the bullshit that happened last Wednesday.  I was TRYING to avoid that, but it ended up being a REALLY good conversation & she told me that I had really proven myself, that everyone liked me, that I had a great work ethic & that I wasn’t going anywhere.  Wohoo!  I like this place so much, I’ve been so afraid I’d get fired.  The last job I loved this much fired me (the only job I was ever fired from, every other I quit).  So, to hear that a job I love loves me too is a great feeling. 

I got the OTHER headlight bulb replaced today.  They were great, they just did it right then & there even though they were SWAMPED.  It was cool.   I bought tranny fluid, too.  Tranny’s been acting funny & I was sure it was my fluid.  Diagnostitician that I am, found that my level was low & my current tranny fluid was brown (it should be a pinkish-red).  Go me!  Plus my hands are all dirty from playing with my motor.  I LOVE that!  Makes me feel like a mechanic!    And, in an odd way, I find it rather sexy 

I went to the Smithaven mall to get some earrings.  Got 2 pair & bought some cd’s.  I got another Pink CD.  Damn is she hot!  LOL.  I also got 2 Loreena McKennitt Cd’s.  I had these, one I leant to Pam & never got back, the other fell into the black-hole-vortex that is my apartment    But, it is SO great to hear them again.  Totally putting me in a witchy mood!  It’s so peaceful & beautiful.  I first heard of her when I was dancing, now as a witch, I’ve encountered many Wiccans who like her, too.  It brings back dance memories, as well as Wiccan emotions/thoughts.  She is awesome!  I recommend her music to everyone! 

I saw Lynn today.  She’s going to darken the right side of my chest/torso piece (it’s significantly lighter than the left), so I’m calling her tomorrow to schedule that sitting.  She pulled me into the bathroom to tell me about Stephen.  I told her I saw him & that he told me he was gone, that was all I said.  She gave me reasons other than what he told me as to why/how this happened.  VERY strange.  I feel more torn in this than I did when my parents divorced.  I love both Lynn & stephen so much, this is very hard.  I don’t know who to believe.  Do I have to pick sides?  They both know I have a strong relationship with the other.  I just feel odd mentioning the other person to each of them.  This really sucks.  They both said it was done on good terms, but I don’t necessarily buy that, I feel a lot of pain from both of them.  That is what pains me.

Stephen e-mailed me (We’ve actually e-mailed & talked on the phone several times since yesterday.  Things seem back to normal with us) today.  He wants to do more black & white shots…These with swan wings!  I think that’ll be gorgeous.  We’re waiting for the first ones to develop, then we’ll take it from there.  I would REALLY like to do that, I think it’ll come out so beautifully.  I’ll let you know if/when we do it. 

I got an e-mail today that there’s a local Witch meeting next Tuesday.  I REALLY want to go, but as of right now, I wouldn’t be able to because of work.  I’m going to try to take the day off.  I’m getting work done on the car that morning & a Witch’s meeting would just rock.  So, tomorrow, I’m going to ask for the day off.  I hope I can get it, it would be so great to meet local, fellow Wiccans.  Keepin’ my fingers crossed for that one.

Hmmmm…I think that’s it.  Actually, looking at the time, that has to be it.  I still have to stretch & do my ab work, as well as shower.  Goodnight, everyone.  Sleep well & stay warm!  Much love & many blessings to you all!

Hey all!  Photoshoot went great today.  Stephen & I talked for a couple of hours & the pictures took quite a while.  I got to his place at 11 & left after 4.  The great thing was, he kept asking me if I was ok, comfortable, etc.  He really made sure I was ok doing everything.  At one point I took a deep breath (ya know how you do that occassionally?), and he just stopped.  And with a sincerity I haven’t seen in a person before, he asked if I was ok or if I wanted to stop.  I told him I was fine.  His concern made a huge difference.  We also joked A LOT during the whole thing which helped too.  Of course, there was enuendo, but it was all in jest.  He did have me lay on his bed (at that point, I started to get a little nervous), I was laying perpedicular on the bed, legs & head hanging off the sides while he climbed a ladder to get an aerial shot.  It was quite a site!    But laughing & being stupid (as we tend to be anyway), made it easier for me.  Somehow, it became ok.  Part of it was the professionalism and caring on his part, but I guess the joking put me at such ease, that it really was ok for this male friend of mine to see me like this.  It was actually rather nice.  I’m dying to see how the pictures actually came out.  It’s hard to know when you’re contorting yourself, holding your breath & looking in other directions!   Not sure when the film will get developed, but as soon as it does, you will know 

So, that crazy e-mail he sent me…He’s no longer at the studio .  First off, I MUST give kudos to Heather.  Clearly a smarter woman than I’ll ever be, she guessed that he left the shop.  He left, not due to a falling out, but for a few reasons, which I don’t think I should discuss here, but none the less, that’s what that was all about.  Strange, huh?

Dinner w/ Pam was post-poned until Saturday.  That’s fine.  Now I can relax the rest of the night here @ home.  So, that’s cool, too.

Thank you for the magick help so far.  I do open the windows when needed, but the pets can’t really escape the smoke.  The layout of the apartment is not conducive for that, and even with open windows, the ventilation in here sucks, so hence my dilemma.  I try to do what I can, but it’s not easy in a space like this.  Once I have my own house, I plan on having a room strictly for spell work/magick with good ventilation, etc. so I can breathe, have privacy & have all my herbs, etc. right there for me.  It’ll be great (if only life were as simple as our daydreams) 

As for Deer, I know that what ever does or does not happen is meant to be.  I’d be honored if this progresses from here, but I also understand if it does not.  Everything happens for a reason, this I know.  We may not understand right away, but it will eventually reveal itself to us.

Well, I think that wraps up my day for now, although I;m sure I’ll be back later    Take care, all.  Have a great night.  Blessed be!

Ok, addendum to that last entry    To my Wiccan sisters, I have some questions for you:

#1 – I tend to be REALLY off on waning moons (not acting like myself, physically not well, etc.).  I understand that the moon can have powerful effects on us & our bodies.  My question to you is, do you know of any rituals or spells I can do to hopefully break (or at least lessen) this?  Anything more than simply burning some sage?  I just do some stupid things or my digestive problems act up or I’m tired or what have you & I generally don’t like “waning moon Lauren” – she’s not cool, in a lot of ways    Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

#2 – Spell work question.  Most of my spell work includes a lot of candle, incense, sage  & herbal burning.  That’s fine, but I’d like to move on from there.  Secondly, I found out recently that all that smoke could have (I’m almost completely sure it was) caused Nyako’s lung cancer.  Needless to say, there’s a lot of guilt there, as well as worrying about Akh & Tobar (my kitten & bird).  Can anyone give me ideas of other things to do when casting spells?  I sometimes annoint myself with oil & I’ve done a few ritual baths, too.  But I really want to grow in my craft, as well as learn, and this is the best way to do it.  Any & all information is GREATLY appreciated.  Thank you all so very much.

Take care, everyone.  Sleep well.  Much love & many blessings to each & every one of you!

I’m actually at my mom’s right now, we’re gonna be heading out in a little bit.  I’m gonna do treatments, then my mom, Dick & I are going to have dinner, then I’m going to the wake.  I’m dressed & ready to go.  It’ll be interesting trying to manuever around the hospital dressed like this 

I heard from “Deer” today.  She got the flowers & loved them, which is great.  As long as she appreciated them.  Her kids (who got a box of chocolates from me which they apprently loved) were really keeping her on her toes today, so we didn’t get into a “where do we go from here” conversation.  That’s fine.  I’m just happy that she’s happy.

Getting kinda nervous about tomorrow.  I’m just so shy & modest & self-conscious.  I’m sure it’ll be fine, but I can’t help but get a little nervous & embarassed.  Although, as a photographer, Stephen has seen many other women topless & naked before.  I guess it just feels different ’cause it’s me.  And maybe, too, because there was no official closure to whatever happened between us.  I don’t REALLY know how he feels about me.  Tomorrow will be the first time I see him in over a month.  I’m sure it’ll be just fine.  Right now, I’m just anxious & nervous & afraid it’s going to be awkward & embarassing.

I should go before someone comes down & sees all this.  I love my mother to death, but she’s pretty old fashioned about things (I always call her Donna Reed without the dress or the vacuum).  She still does not know that I’m Wiccan or Bi, certain things are best left unsaid with her.  She still denies what happened with my father, but that’s a whole other story     So, anyhoo.  I’m off.  Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday evening.  I’ll probably check in tomorrow night after the photoshoot & dinner with Pam.  Goodnight, all.  Blessed be!

Do I dare say it?  Happy Valetine’s Day, everyone.  Personally, it’s a holiday I could care less about.  I guess getting that restraining order against my ex-hubby on Valentine’s kinda ruined the day for me 

Welp, no word from “Deer” yet.  I’m dying.  No phone call, no e-mail, nothing.  Not even to confirm she got “it.”   It’s fine if she needs some to think, I was just kinda hoping for at least a confirmation that she received it.  As much as I’d love to be with her, if she says no, I’m ok with that.  I just don’t want to lose our friendship.  Sigh….Waiting sucks.

Work was…Eh.     Nothing too crazy.  Oh, we did have a bobcat come in yesterday that ate a Kong toy…I missed pretty much all of it, but I did get to see Jakie closing & help clean the surgical site before the cat woke up.  That was cool.  Other than that, we’ve been busy, but nothing TOO crazy.  Oh, did I mention the other foreign body surgery we had this week?  A Mastiff ate…Well, he swallowed (whole) 2 stuffed toys…a seal & a cow!    He went home today.  Those were the 2 most interesting cases this week.  Ah, well, enough about work.  I have to go back in the morning anyway!  My first Sunday on.  Oh, and HerbWytche, they’re not quite scrubs, but it was the closest thing they had    It’s funny ’cause I planned on putting that pic up anyway, and then you happened to mention it!  Too funny! 

Justin’s Grandmother died yesterday.  So, I have to go to the wake tomorrow after I do evening treatments at work.  Please send some good, positive, loving, caring, supportive, warm energy to him & his family.  I know she’s been suffering for a little while, but that never eases the pain.  So, please send some love his way, ok?  Thanks!

Well, I’m gonna go get ready for bed.  Tomorrow is going to be a hellish day.  Take care all, sleep well.  Blessed be!

I just watched my tape of survivor.  Oh my god!  Did you see the end?!  I STILL have goosebumps.  I cried so hard, from a place I’ve never cried before.  I’m fighting back the tears as I write this.  I don’t want to go into details, because I know a few of you out there are fellow Survivor fans & I don’t want to ruin it in case you haven’t seen it yet…

On a different note…I just got a very bizarre e-mail from Stephen.  This is so NOT him.  Tell me this isn’t bizarre:    Lauren,  We will most likely do it at my house. Things are changing before my eyes. I will explain when I see you.  As for Friday, Lynn won’t be in. So don’t go. I will explain when I see you.  It’s all slight of hand and misdirection. I will explain when I see you.  We will write again before Monday when all will be revealed.
Stephen

The way he wrote it was odd.  He also said with certainty (not typical of him), that we would e-mail each other again before Monday.  Hmmmm….  My gut says, well of course, dummy, we still haven’t set a time!  But, at the same time, how can I not help but think something is up.  I hope everyone is ok.  Strange….

Well, I should TRY to go to bed….Gotta be up for work in 6 hours.  My ass is gonna drag.  Always does when I don’t get 8 hours or more sleep.  Oh, I hope you all enjoy my new mood/picture thing on the right….The moods should change daily unless I feel the same way for more than a day (hell, I don’t feel the same every 5 minutes!)    The funny thing is, that little face looks just like me!  LOL.  Anyway, enjoy!  Goodnight world.  Rest well, and blessed be.

Good morning, all!  I had the weirdest dream last night.  It was about Vinny.  Of all people!  I haven’t really seen him in years.  I BRIEFLY saw him at Keith Doug’s wake, but that was so brief and, I barely saw him…It was more like he wasn’t there at all.  Anyway, I just thought it was odd I dreamt about him.  I don’t remember how it started.  I just remember being with him, and yes, it did feel good to be back in his arms.  But things got weird again, and we had gone out to McDonalds or something with a large group of guys, I was the only female.  I don’t know how I got myself out of there, but I decided I’d have him think I was going to meet him back wherever, but I was really running away, back to my home.  And I was on foot.  Midway through my escape, he and the guys found me.  He wasn’t angry, though.  We just talked.  And I told him that I loved him.  He said he never could love someone again (in reality he said that was because of his ex, Pam.  So, I’ll assume here it was the same reason), but he was as close to that with me as possible, that he was very happy with me.  And I kind of settled for that, but at the same time, I wanted to run away again.  Somehow that turned into me being with Robin, a female doctor at work.  And that turned into a beautiful lesbian thing.  Now granted, Robin is my favorite doctor at work, but not in that way.  The dream ended very happily with me & Robin being very much in love.  I’m happy it ended nicely, but geez that was weird!  Hmmmm…I wonder what the hell that all meant!    To me, the beginning of trying to run away from Vinny is fairly obvious, but the rest is just a mystery 

Anyway, here is the letter I just typed up to give to Doreen today.  I purposely did NOT want to speak to her about it (because I would have ripped her SEVERAL new ones), and I wanted to be sure I got my point across, but in a diplomatic way.  Doreen is kind of like a tattle-tale kid….She’s always running to Gini, our office manager, about something.  This way, IF she shows it to Gini, they can’t hold anything against me.  There was a problem, I addressed it quietly, and with the person directly.  I didn’t make a scene or get people involved who didn’t need to be.  I think I handled this pretty well.  Let me know what all of you think.  That’s it for now.  Take care, everyone.  I’ll talk to you later.  Take care & blessed be!

Doreen,

I am writing this note about last night because I wanted to make sure I get my point across and do so in a proper manner. I wouldn’t want to say something I didn’t mean simply out of frustration. And I’m typing it because I have God-awful handwriting.

About yesterday, I am sorry if I got short with you. It had nothing to do with the long, stressful day. I was feel frustrated all day, and by the end of it all, it had just completely escalated. I was frustrated because I felt I ended up doing more kennel work than technical work. Wednesday is my one and only surgical day, and I really did not get to use that to its optimum yesterday. I know it is easy for you to jump in since you know the routine much better than I, you know where things are, you know doctors’ preferences, etc. I understand that. However, I, too, am a licensed technician, and that needs to be remembered. I am here to work just as much as you are, and how will I ever improve on my skills or my speed around this hospital if I am not allowed to jump in myself. I felt it was very unfair for you to hand off your surgical cat which was about to be extubated and take over the rabbit neuter, when I was there, already helping Robin. I don’t mind extubating animals, but I really did not feel like I was allowed to do much yesterday, and that was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Normally one tech sees a case through, from pre-meds to extubation and recovery, it’s just the one technician. Personally, I do not believe that it is fair for one technician to be involved in a case and the surgery itself, but then hand it off once everything is done, to get involved in another case.

I do not mind helping to clean or organize things around the hospital. We are all there to chip in and help each other out. However, that does not instantly mean that I am simply the kennel help. I have been working in the field for too long, and passed my licensing exam to be used simply as a cleaner. Again, I am more than happy to chip in and help. I have no problem with that. However, it felt last night more like I was the kennel attendant than I was a technician. That, to me, is unfair. We all need to work together. Last night, with you staying late, we had 3 licensed techs and one license-eligible tech working. There is no reason that the kennel/cleaning work could not have been divided amongst all of us. I ask that you please keep that in mind.

My bottom line is this: I am not angry with you. But I was very frustrated, and I think I had every right to be. I ask that you please remember we are all here to work together. It is important that everyone works together, rather than working FOR someone. Please remember that I am also a licensed tech, and I am quite capable of handling my responsibilities as such. Please be aware of the cause of my frustration, and hopefully something like last night will not happen again. Thanks, Doreen. Have a great afternoon.

                                                                                                                        -Lauren

Sigh…Damn, I’m tired!  Worked a 12 hour day today.  Wouldn’t have been bad if Doreen hadn’t been so bitchy.  I don’t really want to get in to it.  I talked to Lauren about it, and since I’ve just been fooling around on the internet, I’m in a better mood.  Exhausted, but not totally cranky    I have to write a note to Doreen.  Basically my way of reminding her that she’s not the only licensed tech in the hospital & that she should not be treating her co-workers like they are there to work for her, we are not beneath her.  Maybe I’ll do that in the morning, I don’t know.  Feelin’ pretty fried at the moment.

Got an e-mail from Stephen.  Should be doing the photo shoot on Monday.  Wohoo!  I’m looking forward to that, it should be fun.  As soon as I get the pics back, I’ll post ‘em up here so you guys can finally see my ink, which I wear with great pride    Obviously, I will NOT post a picture of the chest/torso piece.  That just wouldn’t be appropriate.  If you would like to see it, I’ll e-mail it to you privately.  Please bear in mind this piece was done artistically, the picture(s) will be done in an artful manner, and that needs to be respected.  Location aside, this is still art & it is my body, and I ask that I, as well as my art, is respected, treated with dignity & not viewed in any other manner.  If you cannot understand or respect that, please do not ask to see the picture.  I trust in good faith, this will be done.  As you all know by now, I’m not a prude, but I am modest, and this is an extremely important piece to me, and I just thought I should make that disclaimer.

Anyhoo, I think I’ll go eat, or maybe just go to bed.  Somehow, I don’t see myself excercising tonight.  But 12 hours on my feet all day and only having eaten a granola bar, 2 yogurts & a little bag of crisp-um’s (little baked cookie-type things from Quaker oats with cinnamon…REALLY good!), I don’t think I need to    I literally sat for about 10 minutes all day, until I came home, of course    I’ve been in this chair for an hour & I really don’t want to get up    Sigh….So, I guess that’s it for now.  Just so y’all know, I doubt this will make a damn bit of difference, but…   I’m going out Friday to the Tattoo parlor to discuss the dolphin piece, and I’m going out Saturday night after work, too.  That’s a first!  I’m ALWAYS home Friday & saturday nights.  It’ll be a nice change of pace, something a little different    So, if you don’t hear from me it’s because I’ve actually decided to let myself see the light of day (or in this case, night) for a change! 

Welp, I’m off for now.  Have a good night, world!  Ooh, one last thing…Everyone needs to go see llamainthehouse’s site.  That’s Lauren, my best friend.  Known that crazy girl almost all my life.  God only knows why she talks to me, but I love her!  So, if you could, drop by, give her a nice, warm Xanga hello!  Now, I’m REALLY signing off    Goodnight, everyone.  Sleep well.  Blessed be!