Hey, Sweetie!  You know, Saturn has been in Cancer for the past 2 1/2 years.  And it's been retrograde for the past 5-6 months.  During this time we tend to feel a lot more self-concious, low self-esteem, you know - the whole "I'm not worthy" ball of wax.  But - Good News! - Saturn is about to return to normal forward motion!!  Everything is about to change.  Not fast, mind you.  But now is the time when new ideas and opportunities will come to us allowing us to do a lot of genuflecting and actually figure out what might be GOOD for us. We will be able to put these into motion.  And we're not to think in terms of yesterday, today, and tomorrow.  We need to be thinking in terms of last year, this year, and next year.  The scope is that grand.  I know it's tough, has been for me too.  I, too, have serious self-worth issues.  Most times I do OK at hiding it.  But it's always there.  Sometimes she's a regular-seeming person, sometimes she's only this little dwarf.  Tiny.  But sometimes she's this Giant.  Huge.  Overpowering.  And I feel like I'm in the shadow of this megalithic beast.  In the shadow, in the dark, and no one can really see me.  Insignificant.  I have to honestly say those times are rarer, but still just as harmful when they are there.  But the stars don't lie.  It's all a-changin'.  I've felt it coming for a while now.  Didn't realize what it was until I checked my charts this week.  But Saturn is just hanging in the sky as if it is motionless.  And it will commence direct motion any time now.  So now is the time to deal with all those self-worth issues.  You just have to be "cocky" enough to KNOW you are GREAT; to KNOW without a doubt that ANYONE would be LUCKY to have you; to KNOW beyond all certainty that YOU are NOT a misfit; and to KNOW in your heart that you are having all the experiences you are supposed to have so that you may become the person you always intended for yourself to be.

There's a little spell I do sometimes when I'm really feeling low and unlovely.  I set up my circle, get my things ready.  Then I take the most luxurious bath - candles, incense, sweet-smelling oils, the works.  Dry off and wrap up in a very thick and plush towel.  Put on my ceremonial robes (or whatever you feel like that is loose and comfortable and flowing - half naked helps with this spell.)  Then I go and do my spell.  I draw beauty to me.  I draw intelligence to me.  (You can do this through whatever elements and dieties are best suited to you for this purpose.  I always set my circle up with flowers and incense, whatever means "BEAUTY" to me.  I annoint my head - the third eye (I just love that little sweet spot) with lavendar oil or sandalwood if I'm feeling particularly "heated."  I call to the four corners, and ask all the elements to assist me in this.  I say my affirmations:  I AM BEAUTIFUL.  I AM LOVELY.  I AM SEXY.  I AM INTELLIGENT.  I AM WORTHY.  I AM DESIRED.  (Feel free to throw in whatever applies to you.  You know best what works for you.)  Then after closing my circle, I put on something that makes me feel completely SEXY.  Doesn't matter what it is, as long as it makes you feel a little wanton and provocative.  The secret to this is ***YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR**** you can only use a face-mirror to put on your make-up and check your hair.  You cannot look at yourself!!  You can only FEEL yourself.  Feel how lovely you are.  And you can be certain of it since you cast a spell to be so lovely.  Go out, dancing, dinner, whatever.  Meet up with people.  But do not ever look at your reflection.  As soon as you do, the spell is broken.  Everyone will notice the difference.  They will flock to you because of your new energy.  You'll see.  This always works.  You just have to let it work.  And if you're really good at this spell, it lasts until the next morning and you get to take it to work with you.  That's my favorite part of it.  Everyone around you suddenly "feels" different.  They may even ask you what you've done - hair color, lost a few pounds, whatever.  They won't be able to put their finger on it, though.  Have fun with it.  It's an easy spell.  It's always easy to cast on ourselves.  Just be careful what you ask for.  But you already know that.

Love and light to you, you beautiful woman. ~