March 29, 2004
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
Hello agin, world. Just another entry by yours truly
I was thinking about what I was going to write in today's entry as I drove around in Lindenhurst, lost, trying to find my great Aunt & Uncle's house. A trip that should only have taken me an hour, took 2. Oh well. I still had a nice dinner with my grandparents & Aunt Margie & Uncle Ed.
During dinner, we had an interesting religion debate. They are all Catholic & none know that I am Wiccan, but my background in Christianity certainly helped. We discussed the mercy of God, etc. We all agreed that it is not out job to judge others. Who are we to determine if one "sin" is worse than another? Uncle Ed (the strictest Catholic of all) even said he was ok if gays wanted to live their lives in committed relationships, he had no problem with homosexuality, he just had difficulty with the idea of legalizing marriage for them. For a man of his background & generation, I thought that was amazing. I was impressed with his ability to at least accept homosexuality to some degree. We also discussed marriage & divorce. Both Uncle Ed & I agreed that people should be allowed to remarry, that divorce should not be considered sinful or wrong. Margie, surprisingly, didn't like the idea of getting married twice in the church. Since my parents were married by a judge, she said it was ok if my mom & Richard wanted to get married in a church since mom's first marriage wasn't before God. I told her God was everywhere. She said I was right, but she just wasn't comfortable. To ease the tension (yes, there was tension between Margie & Eddie), I said there were too many shades of grey & that we should leave things to God's descretion. They both agreed to that. Right after that, my grandparents left. I stayed for a little while longer. The 3 of us talked about how happy we are that Richard is in my mom's life. We all agreed that he is a blessing to us all. Marge asked me if I knew if my father knew about him. I told her I didn't know. She asked again & I said, "I really don't know. Ya know, Marge, it's been about 10 years since I spoke to my father." She asked why & I told her he was a bad man & that he was abusive to me. She didn't seem to believe me. She said, "Well, he didn't abuse you sexually did he?" And I told her. She & Eddie were floored. Apparently my grandmother never told them. I told them to keep it quiet, that it really bothers my mom. We talked about it a bit & you could see it in their faces, they were highly disturbed. I told them that I believed he would get his in the end, and that it's not my problem any more. I am moving on & I'm better off not speaking to him (less stress & drama in my life). They both agreed with that. I also explained that was why I got married. We all talked about that cycle & how my father's abuse affected me & I ended up making that decision. Again, though, we discussed how I'm better off now, I'm moving on, living on my own & doing well, etc. etc. It certainly changed my relationship with them, I've always been close with Margie & Eddie, now we're even closer. Although my family, just like any other family, has its issues, I really do love these people & feel blessed to have them in my life. It was a nice evening.
L-Word was pretty good
It's funny because Pam has gone to that festival the girls went to. She showed me pictures. Those shots by the pool are exact, except that it wasn't as crowded as it is in real life. Pam told me, and you could see it in her pictures, you can't walk around, there are so many women. It looked awesome, though. I'll bet stuff like that is really cool. Maybe one day I'll go... 
Well, I think that's it for now. Got a big day ahead of me. Got all the DMV & insurance shit to do for the truck. I'm slightly worried because Shaun hasn't e-mailed or called me with the VIN, and I'm afraid I'll be stuck without it. I just keep telling myself it'll all work out, I know it will, but I can't store the Stratus until I know I'm kosher with the truck. I'm seriously considering keeping it & slowly but surely, throwing small incriments of money into it & restoring it, maybe even to show quality. We'll see. It all boils down to whether I can afford to keep & maintain the 2 cars. To be paying for the storage for one, gas, oil & regular maintenance work on both, insurance on both, etc. on top of my other bills is a lot for me to take on, especially with one job that doesn't pay THAT well. So, we'll have to see. All in due time. I am getting very excited about ot, though. Little ol' me driving around in this big ass truck with a freakin' 350! LOL...What a sight. This truck is bigger than my F-150 was, in every aspect (as far as I can remember about good old "Beast"). It's cool, though, It's all good
Wow, that was quite a rant for something that was supposed just be a "good night." With that, I'm REALLY off to bed now Have a great night, all. I'll talk to you soon. Much love & many blessings to you all!
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