March 31, 2004

• Ugh.  Please remind me that I always say I can't eat salad for a reason.  I went out to dinner with Denise, a friend of Dawn & Justin's, and a fellow Witch.  We met at Friday's.  I had their harvest apple salad with chicken (I've had it before.  It's REALLY good).  Not that long ago, I ended up paying for it.  BIG TIME.  Salads have bothered me in the past, though not extensively.  So, I'd have one occasionally & I'd be fine.  Since that last attack (a couple of weeks ago), it seems I can't have any   This sucks, I'm trying to be healthy, and this is what it does to me.  And I wonder why I'm single!  LOL....Who would want to put up with a person who spends more time in the bathroom than anywhere else?!   Sad, but true.  Oh well.  I've been wanting to do this Vipassana meditation for a long time, almost a year.  I've signed up twice & had to cancel both times.  A woman who used to work at my favorite Witch store told me about it.  She was telling me about digestive issues she had due to her internalizing the death of her fiancee when she was young (she is now married with a family, etc.).  She said that doing this meditation (it's a 10 day program) really helped her body, because she rid herself of this negativity.  She said she wasn't completely healed, but there was marked improvement.  That's what I need.  I know why I'm like this.  It's very common for survivors of child sexual abuse to internalize & end up with stomach problems later on.  If I could do this program & truly free myself of these demons, I KNOW I'd be better.  I know it will never completely heal, but it will be better, and I won't continue to carry this with me subconsciously.  I'm hoping that maybe I can get the time off in the fall to go....

  
  

  So, I fell in love with the truck tonight on my way home from dinner.  Last night's drive was just scarey.  My drive to work this morning was slightly frustrating & a bit odd.  But we bonded on the ride home.  She is old & beat (Then again, so am I ), but damn she is still kickin' it with the best of them!  It's so funny...I've never been stared at so much in my life.  Guys in their trucks look (a) because they can't believe something that old is still running and (b) she sounds great.  They are SHOCKED when they see this tiny little girl behind the wheel, controlling a 350 like it's nothing.  It's so funny!  Their expressions are priceless!  I'm hoping that when I go to visit Lauren in May that she can take some pictures of me & the truck & e-mail them to me & I'll put them up here.  Oh, speaking of pictures, Stephen mailed me my tattoo pics, I should get them tomorrow.  I'll scan them at my mom's house on Sunday, so I should be able to post them Sunday night or Monday, if any one is interested,

  
  

  Well, I should go.  It's getting late.  I missed South Park   I'm still  a little crampy from the battle with the salad.  So, anyhoo, Nite all!  Much love & many blessings to you all!

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