April 7, 2004
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Just some random thoughts today...
1) I was driving around Sayville, passed by Mike's parent's house. It was odd. I really liked them. In a way, I wish I would run into them somewhere. I hold nothing against them. Why should I? I would like to tell them that, and to say, "I don't know what your son told you, but I think you should hear my side of the story. Some very hurtful things were said about my friends & family & I do not tolerate that. I, along with my friends & family, were condemned by him to hell, which was uncalled for. Obviously I cannot stay in a relationship with somrone who can't respect my friends, family or even myself as people/a person." I don't know why, but I would love to say something like that to them. For whatever reason, their opnion of me is important. I have a lot of respect for them, but it's odd how I still want their approval, or at least some kind of acknowledgement....
2) I stopped by the Tat parlor to confirm my date in Aug, set up a second appointment & ask about eyebrow piercings (I REALLY want one!). I was looking through the book & saw several pictures of Stephen's tattoos. It was odd, sad really. He has such beautiful, powerful/meaningful work. He's become such a recluse. I worry about him, but he doesn't seem to want to have anything to do with me. Oh well... I hope he does well in all his pursuits.
3) I've found myself asking recently why I am so drawn to blue collar people & the blue collar lifestyle. I was NOT raised that way. My father was obsessed with image & driving nice cars & looking wealthier & fancier than he really was. My grandparents belong to a country club, I've been going there all my life. Hell, we're going there on Sunday for Easter. Yet, I've always been drawn to people like Vinny. I relate better to truck drivers & construction workers than I do my own mother. I understand the car/truck/Harley scene & people. I grew up watching NASCAR. I only stopped because Dale Earnhardt, my "idol" (I talked about becoming a professional driver & racing him one day. I really liked & respected him as a person and a driver), died. I fit in better with those people & scenes & I can't figure out why. It's just odd that I'm like that...
4) "I want to know what love is/I want you to show me/I want to feel what love is/I know you can show me..." - Foreigner. That song is so true of me & my life. I want to know what & how it feels to be truly loved by someone else. No one seems to be volunteering for the job, though. Why, I wonder...
5) A funny way to end tonight. The shocks on the truck are shot. You bounce around in a truck like that anyway, now it's just magnified
I flop around a bit, you could say. So, what is my new theme song (Besides the Beverly Hillbillies, as per my mom)? To the tune of Nancy Sinatra's These Boots:
These Boobs are made for flopping/And that's just what they'll do/One of these days these boobs are gonna flop all over you...
Nite all, much love & many blessings....
Comments (5)
Hi! Scott Cunningham is really good author, i read several of his works when i interested in Wicca before...his works helped me a lot to understand how nature works
I have plans too to get a piercing under the lower lip but i hesitate now...i am maybe too old. I wanted another tatoo as well but i want to go train in a gym in japan so i cant have it. My other tatoo i can hide it easily...but the other one i want will cannot hide easily.
Oh and thankx for having putted your picture online before...now i know how you look like i was little bit curious about it and you are like i tought...a smile who is radiant like the light of a thousand suns and eyes who are bright like 2 powerfull shinning stars. You really radiate compassion and wisdom!
take good care please!
ciao
1) I totally understand what you mean...I don't understand why people can't just accept others for who they are and what their beliefs are...that just always leads to trouble...and I know I wish I could explain things to the parents of my one ex, just how you described your situation...maybe someday that'll work out for the both of us...
2) That's interesting...i'm not a tatoo or piercing person myself...funny how someone who still struggles with trying not to hurt herself can say she hates pain, but that's my internal logic for ya...they scare me personally...plus I had a really bad experience with getting just my ears pierced, I have extremely sensitive skin (just give me too big of a hug and you can leave bruises on me, i'm that sensitive) and i'm prone to infections...the ears got infected plus my ear itself, the skin grew up around the back of one earring...I had to tear away the skin to pull the earrings out...there was blood everywhere...not a happy memory...but I know pleanty of people with lots of piercings and tatoo's and if that's what you wanna do then I totally support you in it
3) Believe it or not, I know what you mean there...at least with my ex Matt...these are literal examples from our relationship...the "restaurant" he took me out to eat at for a date was McDonalds (go fast food! lol)...drove me places in his big, red, rusty pickup truck...actually, wanted to take me to prom in the pickup truck, but I couldn't fathom trying to get down from that tall thing in high heels when i'm so damn short, lol...so we took his parents car...but yeah, he lives out in the middle of the country...has a hyperactive rabbit, a snake, and a black cat for pets...it was great, I didn't feel like I had to act so pretentious around him or his family. But now that i'm going out with Steve, I kinda do enjoy doing the dress-up thing every once in awhile...and his family's still pretty casual most of the time...I mean, heck, his sister can burp so loud it shakes the room, and i'm not exaggerating, LOL.
4) Awww...well, if it's any consolation...I love you like a sister...I know we don't know each other all that well and we've never talked other than online, but I really do care about you and I would never want to see you get hurt...especially after all you've helped me through, you really feel like a sister to me...and though it may not be the love of an intimate relationship, i've got unconditional love for you...you know i'm always here if you need me for any reason :smile:
5) lmao...I know how you feel, I felt the same way trying to run the mile in school! I'm sure I looked like an idiot holding my chest so my boobs wouldn't bounce so much...LOL...but sometimes you gotta do whatcha gotta do!
Well, I must be going to bed now...good luck with everything and I hope to hear from you again soon! Have a great night!
Love and blessings,
Taby
lol, mine flop too.
Sounds like we share the same life! :biggrin: Hugs to you and kisses to your boo boos. "Hell Boy" is about...well...this red guy/demon (?) who...well...he's a supernatural/paranormal crime fighter, sort of...well, no...er...it's kind of hard to say...um...I really, really, really liked it though. :idunno:
you're getting a tattoo? of what? is this your first one?
I've been thinking about getting one for over a year now, I'm SOOO undecided about it! plus, not sure what exacty I want... how do you decide??
good luck with it!
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