April 28, 2004

• Hey all.  Thanks for the kind words, much appreciated.  As for work, I don't know how much, or if at all, the "incident" with Carol made an impression.  Logically thinking, it should have.  Here they were taking her word for gospel that I'm a fuck-up, and she goes against their normal rules.  That right there shows that she is not necessarily a reliable source.  And ya know, I was thinking too....Not that long ago, she melted one of Dr. Bitetto's drills by sticking it in the autoclave.  Not only did she ruin his drill, she then had Jacobson buy him a new one, only to find out he had like 9 others!  How is that any better than my mistake?  She wasn't put on probation for that!  My point is, we all make mistakes, why am I the scapegoat?  I'm still frustrated, needless to say, but I did call about a job that I really want.  I'm hoping this works out.  It's in CT, it's at a lab, but I would be doing necropsies & pathology all day.  I wouldn't be doing any animal testing or anything like that.  I've always enjoyed necropsies & I find pathology fascinating.  If the job is right, I'll move up there when my lease here is up in August.  That really lifted my spirits today, since I just get so frustrated & hurt that I'm not allowed to do the work I'm qualified for.  How do they expect me to prove myself if they don't integrate me in?  Most of my work was more assistant-level: restraining, MAYBE drawing blood once a week, OCCASIONALLY intubating an animal, etc.  They never let me get into their routine.  I was more of a helper to them than a co-worker.  So, as I see it, it's not really worth it for me to stay.  I haven't said anything yet, no need to shoot myself in the foot.  But, I'm looking every day.  And if/when I do leave, I plan on saying something to them.  Something to that extent of, how do you expect me to show what I can or cannot do if you don't let me?  This is a loss for you, because you don't know what you're losing.  Ack.  Whatever. 

  
  

  I spoke to Shannon on-line for a bit today.  She's having a REALLY shitty day.  I wish I could be there for her.  Hopefully this will clear up.  She doesn't need this, and what it is is ridiculous, it is stupid & unnecessary.  Poor thing.  She's really looking forward to moving in to her own place on Saturday.  Again, I wish I could help her, but I'll be on my way to Virginia.  I may call, just as a congrats on your new place kind of thing.  It was good chatting with her, though.  I wasn't sure where her mind was regarding me, but she's not avoiding me which is always a good sign!

  
  

  Well, I really should go clean.  My dinner with Denise tonight got cancelled b/c she's got a nasty sinus infection that went into her chest.  So, now I have no excuse not to fix up the joint   So, I'm off for now.  Take it easy, everyone.  I hope you are all doing well.  Take care, much love & many blessings!

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