Hey guys!  I’m trying to get to all of you as best as I can.  I was able to catch up with everyone’s entries today.  It’s tough cause I’m working every day until next monday, which is my next day off, but I’m spending it getting the fuel gauge (and probably the gas tank itself) fixed, which is a HUGE undertaking, so I’ll be at the shop all day.  Once that’s done, anything that needs to be done is minor – alignment, shocks, cosmetic work, etc.  As tired as I am (being in my moon is definetly not helping with that), I need the money & it’s all worth it.  It’s keeping me out of trouble 

So, Beltane is next Saturday.  I took the day off from work months ago.  I was so excited to go to the festival again, and this year it will be MUCH Bigger than last year.  Then I decided I’d drive to VA to visit Lauren from the festival (I’d leave somewhere between 12 & 2), so I ot excited to not only go to the festival, but to spend the weekend with Lauren, Jeff & Colin.  Now, I have a third reason to be excited about this.  It looks like Shannon is going to come!  She’s been asking me a lot about Wicca, and she did some research on it, too.  I mentioned it to her last night & she said she wanted to go, to see what it’s about, see vendors, talk to people, etc.  How cool is that?!  Our first physical meeting will be at Beltane!  I am so excited!

I actually had a dream about Beltane last night, it was good.  My brother was there, asking me questions & not judging me, which is a good thing.  Perhaps that was indicative that he & I will have a big discussion about something like this.  That’s fine by me.  In my dream, my grandmother was walking around with her camera, looking for me to take my picture.  LOL….The funny thing is, she does that in real life almost every time we see them!

Oh, ya know what, getting back to Shannon for a moment.  Really quickly.  I had always thought I’d buy her really nice flowers the first time I met her, but I found out the other day that she is highly allergic.  So, I went online last night & found a few things.  I found a plush wolf (she loves wolves), and I was looking for something with a Shiba Inu (dog breed) on it since she is about to adopt a Sheba pup that came into her animal hospital (did I mention she was a tech, too?  The similarities between us is scary! ).  I was looking for something like Sheba Inu socks (I have Rottweiler socks & they had a few breeds on-line, but no Shebas).  Any other ideas or does anyone know of any good stores or websites?  Consider this my poll for the week, see what everyone says 

I gotta get going.  I’m hungry, I have a ton of stuff to do (I have to bring Akh in with me today.  She had diarrhea for the 2nd time in the past few days, and she keeps doing it OUTSIDE the litterbox!), I have to watch a tape of last week’s Survivor & I’m hungry   So, anyway, have a great day, everyone!  Hope all is well with each of you.  Much love & many blessings to you all!

Just a quick entry as I am behind on getting my stuff done before work.

So, you would NOT believe what happened yesterday.  My mom’s boyfriend stepped outside to play with this golf thing he has that measures your accuracy & strength.  So, my mom then proceeds to tell me that my grandmother told her about what happened with my aunt Marge & Uncle Ed a couple of weeks back (how I told them about my dad).  Well, I was a bit nervous since one of the last times this was discussed with my mother, she tried sending me to a psych ward of LIJ (it’s a local hospital that has branches all over Long Island & Queens).  believe it or not, my mom has finally come to accept it!  We had a bit of a discussion not just about how I came to tell Margie & Eddie, but about everything.  She even told me how before I got married, my father was up her ass about going to my wedding & my mom kept telling him no, but he persisted.  So, in order to get him off her back, she told him!  I had no clue that he knew!  Of course, he denies it, but I was just dumbfounded that she told him!  She has come a temendous way over the past few years.  Boy did that really change my perspective on her & this whole situation.  That was great!

And, I’ve been talking to this girl Shannon, from Curve.  Things seem to be going very well.  We e-mail and/or chat on-line about once daily.  It’s great!  It’s kind of funny, though, we are carbon copies of each other.  The similarities are unbelievable!  LOL…So, I’m really having fun talking to her, we’ll see where this goes

I gotta jet, I REALLY need to take care of some stuff.  Anyhoo, take care.  Have a great day, everyone!  Much love & many blessings to you all!

Hello, everyone!  I hope you are all well.  Just a couple of quick things.  First off, I do hope y’all have been voting for Colin’s picture (on page 26, Colin John S.) at:

http://www.babiesonline.com/babycontest/vote.asp   Keep voting daily, please!

And, if you want to do me a favor, I’m begging people to nominate me & the truck for a show on TLC called Overhaulin’.  They take the truck away for a week & restore & trick it out, and then suprise the owner with it   Feel free to check out the site…I’ll gladly give any information you might need!  LOL.  Thanks!

http://tlc.discovery.com/fansites/overhaulin/geton/geton.html

Also, a very important (to me) petition against whaling in Japan.  In case you missed it in my last entry, here it is again.  PLEASE sign it!

http://www.care2.com/go/z/12524

And lastly, a poem that was e-mailed to me that I think you would all like.  Enjoy!  Take care, have a great weekend.  Much love & many blessings to you all!

TO BE A WITCH

To be a witch is to love and be loved.

To be a witch is to know everything, and nothing at all.

To be a witch is to move amongst the stars while staying on earth.

To be a witch is to change the world around you, and yourself.

To be a witch is to share and give, and receiving all the while.

To be a witch is to dance and sing, and hold hands with the universe.

To be a witch is to honor the gods, and yourself.

To be a witch is to BE magic, not just perform it.

To be a witch is to be honorable, or nothing at all.

To be a witch is to accept others who are not.

To be a witch is to know what you feel is right and good.

To be a witch is to harm none.

To be a witch is to know the ways of old.

To be a witch is to see beyond the barriers.

To be a witch is to follow the moon.

To be a witch is to be one with the gods.

To be a witch is to study and to learn.

To be a witch is to be the teacher and the student.

To be a witch is to acknowledge the truth.

To be a witch is to live with the earth, not just on it.

To be a witch is to be truly free!

~author unknown

IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!

Hey guys!  Just wanted you all to check out this petition.  It’s against whaling in Japan.  I signed it, & e-mailed it to everyone in my address book.  Since I don’t have everyone’s e-mail, I’m putting it here also.  PLEASE sign it & pass it on!

http://www.care2.com/go/z/12524

 

Other than that, some random experiences from this week

Coolest Moment: This morning driving to work, a guy (who I’ve seen him & this before) was riding his trike (it’s a 3 wheel w/ a harley motor & he sits in it & it looks alien, very areodynamic).  I saw him coming up, I love this thing, it’s really cool.  As he passed me, we looked at each other.  I nodded at him, he did a 2 finger quick salute to me & the flew past.  Very cool!

Worst Moment: Coming into work yesterday right when the dog had died.

Exciting: I’ve been talking to this girl named Shannon, from Curve.  She’s very cute & has a great personality.  We’ve been e-mailing & chatting on-line every day this week.  We have so much in common, it’s rather funny/odd   I’m really enjoying our conversations.  Hope she’s enjoying it as much as I am 

Zen Moment: Driving the truck listening to Loreena McKennitt.  If there is a heaven, it was then/there

White Trash moment: Driving the truck listening to eminem  LOL

Yes, despite all the BS from this week, I love that truck more than ever

If you want a good laugh, check these out:

http://moveyoassets.com/v.html?id=3f2753b69f1e9869c828ce61dcafb659

and

http://new.feelgoodpages.com/funpages/view.cfm/2489

Enjoy!

I am exhausted, but it’s all good.  I’m getting some good overtime, I’m working 6 days a week this week & the next 2 weeks, which brings me into May already.  It’s good, I need the cash.  Forget my sanity, I just need money!   Welp, I’m gonna go shower.  Have a great night & a wonderful weekend, everyone.  I’ll talk to you later.  Much love & many blessings to you all!

Ok, I’ll try to make this as brief and to the point as possible 

So, Tuesday night, the truck was overheating again.  I checked my reservoir: EMPTY   I filled it up 3 times & all 3 times I watched it drain out the bottom in the same place as last time.  Mind you, I was out in hurricaine-like weather doing this.  Needless to day, I was cursing Ray out.

Called Ray yesterday morning.  He insisted he needed to see the truck.  So, I brought it in after work yesterday afternoon, he says the seam on the radiator was shot.  How did his miss this when he put the new hose on?!  Anyhoo, 3 hours later, I get my baby back.  Now, I had already made arrangements to bring the truck to Justin’s guy for him to check everything out (truck was also braking poorly AFTER the new Master Cylinder was put in ).

So, that brings us to today.  I got up at 5:30  to get to Massapequa to see this guy at 8 (had to shower & beat rush hour traffic)  So, I got there at 8, went to Starbucks a block down for a Vanilla Steamer & a piece of pound cake for breakfast, of course more rain & wind walking there & back   Came back, he said everything was kosher, the workmanship from Ray was decent   And that he could re-rout all my vaccuum hoses to the booster & that would help with breaking.  By 10:30, I was on my way home & he didn’t charge me much at all.

Then, I got into work, go down to check on everyone in surgery & a dog had just died on tha table (apparently the doctor cut or tore the femoral artery…) and my day only got worse from there… 

It is definetly time for bed for me   But first,   HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAN41580!!!!

And don’t forget to vote for Colin, he’s on page 26 at:  http://www.babiesonline.com/babycontest/vote.asp

And lastly, thank you for all the compliments on my ink    I advise ANYONE considering a piece to have the artist draw it up before hand so you can be sure it looks good & is what you want.  If they can’t or won’t, leave.  They’re not artists, just tattooist (Yes, there is a difference ).  And make sure it means something to you.  It’s on your body & you’re going to look at it for the rest of your life, it’s important that it wasn’t just a whim, but that you truly appreciate it.  Anyway, I’m heading off to beddy-bye-bye-land   Night all, much love & many blessings!

Hey all.  Haven’t forgetten about you.  Things have been absolutely crazy & are about to get worse.  I will check in, read, reply, etc. as soon as I can, ok?  Thanks.  Much love & many blessings to you all!

Ok folks, here are the tat pics.  Not all of the come up, but if you click on the little “x” in the upper left-hand corner, it should come up.  My summaries/meanings were posted in an entry from November 7, I believe.  I had arranged this whole thing with those description & these pics & it got messed up & I’m too tired to re-do it  

Before we get to the good stuff, I must let you all know that Colin, Lauren’s (my best friend) son is in a photo contest starting this Thursday and going until next Wednesday.  You can vote once daily from the same computer.  I ask that you vote for Colin at least once (although, more is DEFINETLY better! ).  Here’s the link:

http://www.babiesonline.com/babycontest/vote.asp

Please help us out with that   Thanks!  It is greatly appreciated!  And now, the pictures….

Tattoo #2 – the purple dragon on my right arm.  

Tattoo #3 – Anubis on my left arm.

Tattoo #4 – The veterinary cadeusus on my neck.

Tattoos # 8 & 11 – The sword & Waxwing on my back.

Tattoo #9 – Nyako (my deceased rat) playing on a crescent moon, on my left thigh.

Tattoo #10 – Tobar’s (my bird) face in the sun, on my right thigh.

As you all know, I am still waiting for my copies of tattoos # 1, 5, 6, & 7, (1, 5 &6 are all together in one pic) as soon as I get them in, I will post them for you.  And no, #12 is not being posted   Sorry, just didn’t think it would be appropriate   I hope you all had a GREAT Easter.  Have a wonderful night, I will catch up with everyone tomorrow.  Much love & many blessings!

Howdy all.  First off, I must thank all of you for your very kind words & support.  It is greatly appreciated.  You are all so very sweet, such wonderfull blessings in my life.

Work was INSANE today.  Very, very busy.  We had 3 euthanasias (at least that I know of, there might have been 1 or 2 more), I was in on 2.  The second one I was fine with until the dog started licking my arm right before she passed.  That was really hard.  There was a reason for that, I know it.  I’m just waiting to see what & why…

Al, Doreen’s fiancee, worked on the truck for me today.  He took off the wood brace from the bed (Yea!!!!), he put in my stereo & some temporary speakers until I buy some & he tucked the wiring away.  She looks SOOOOOOOOOOOOO good   I am so happy, I really feel like she’s coming along.  I’ve got a lot of OT coming up, too, which should help.  I would love it if I could have her ready to show next season.  That would rock the free world (and many parts of the not-so-free world ).

We had a funny thing happen at work.  This priest/pastor was walking into the hospital during our lunch break.  As he’s walking by, Carol is talking about shooting one of our co-workers right between the eyes!  The window in our room which he walked by (as she was saying this) was open & ironically, Carol happens to be a good Lutheran & was trying to be good for Good Friday    Later, the priest is in the waiting room waiting to pick up his pet, and he asks if anyone has a blue pick up.  So, I go out to him & told him I do & asked why.  Turns out, he parked behind me & just wanted to make sure he didn’t block any one in.  Mind you, however, I’m wearing a V-neck scrub top with my pentacle blantantly showing in the v-neck!  And, of course, my truck being a white trash-lesbian truck, it has the sticker of the naked lady silhouette.  I can only imagine what that priest must have been thinking about the staff!  LOL.  We all had a good chuckle out of that one!

Just some quick replies …

Franckie, I agree.  I always recommend Scott Cunningham’s books, he is my personal favorite author.  I find his books to be very easy to read & laid back & open to all perspectives.  And, thank you so much for your kind words.  That was so very sweet, it really means a lot to me.  Oh, and you’re never too old for a piercing or tattoo   Do tell me more about that training in Japan, that sounded REALLY interesting, I’d love to hear more about it.

Tabby, you & I are the complete opposites    Give me a tattoo any day, if I even so much as scratch myself, I turn into a whiney baby   I, too, had problems with my ears, so I do really want to consider this eyebrow piercing thoroughly, but I have wanted one for a year or 2 now, and my “craving” has just gotten so unbelievably strong recently.  I think I told you this before, too, that the tattoos are SUCH a self-esteem booster.  They haved helped me in so many ways.  It’s difficult to describe, but they are such a good thing for me.

MJ07, First off, thank you for subscribing to my site.  I’m going to check yours out after this   No, this is not my first tattoo, it is my 13th (although I have been “Inked” several more times: re-touches, additions, etc.).  Some tats I decided on the spot, the piece/flash  really reached out to me (they ALL have meanings to me), some I worked on with my artist & we came up with original work.  My latest piece which only just got finished 2 weeks ago, was just drawn on me on the spot by Lynn, my artist.  We had been planning one thing, and then she told me that it just wouldn’t look right, and she drew this incredible piece on me & we did it (took 3 sittings).  This next piece will be a giant animal piece on my back, with various animal portraits/silhouettes on my back, integrating the sword & waxwing (bird) piece as well as my veterinary cadeusus.  It represents not only my work with all kinds of animals, but also my connection, that all life forms are connected/related.  This one is going to take a while, but it means a lot, so it’s worth it.  It is very important to get a tattoo that has some kind of meaning to you.  If you do end up getting one consider these few things: Location.  Any place with more muscle or fat will hurt less than directly on the bone.  Scar tissue can hurt pretty badly, too.  Color takes longer to heal than black & grey.  It’s also important, moreso with color, but really for all tattoos, to exfoliate gently & moisturize.  I try to apply Vitamin E or shea butter to my tattoos at least once a month.  They all look new, they held their color so well because of that.  If you do get a piece, good luck!

Speaking of tattoos, so long as I remember this time, I’ll bring my pictures to my mom’s & scan them on Sunday & post them Sunday night or Monday.  Like I said, I don’t have pics of all the pieces, but I have most.  I’ll add in the descriptions too, so you understand each one.

Well, that’s it for now.  Gotta feed Akh & myself & I have a couple of cute ladies from Curve waiting for me to return their e-mails   Have a great night, everyone.  Much love & many blessings!

Just some random thoughts today…

1) I was driving around Sayville, passed by Mike’s parent’s house.  It was odd.  I really liked them.  In a way, I wish I would run into them somewhere.  I hold nothing against them.  Why should I?  I would like to tell them that, and to say, “I don’t know what your son told you, but I think you should hear my side of the story.  Some very hurtful things were said about my friends & family & I do not tolerate that.  I, along with my friends & family, were condemned by him to hell, which was uncalled for.  Obviously I cannot stay in a relationship with somrone who can’t respect my friends, family or even myself as people/a person.”  I don’t know why, but I would love to say something like that to them.  For whatever reason, their opnion of me is important.  I have a lot of respect for them, but it’s odd how I still want their approval, or at least some kind of acknowledgement….

2) I stopped by the Tat parlor to confirm my date in Aug, set up a second appointment & ask about eyebrow piercings (I REALLY want one!).  I was looking through the book & saw several pictures of Stephen’s tattoos.  It was odd, sad really.  He has such beautiful, powerful/meaningful work.  He’s become such a recluse.  I worry about him, but he doesn’t seem to want to have anything to do with me.  Oh well… I hope he does well in all his pursuits.

3) I’ve found myself asking recently why I am so drawn to blue collar people & the blue collar lifestyle.  I was NOT raised that way.  My father was obsessed with image & driving nice cars & looking wealthier & fancier than he really was.  My grandparents belong to a country club, I’ve been going there all my life.  Hell, we’re going there on Sunday for Easter.  Yet, I’ve always been drawn to people like Vinny.  I relate better to truck drivers & construction workers than I do my own mother.  I understand the car/truck/Harley scene & people.  I grew up watching NASCAR.  I only stopped because Dale Earnhardt, my “idol” (I talked about becoming a professional driver & racing him one day.  I really liked & respected him as a person and a driver), died.  I fit in better with those people & scenes & I can’t figure out why.  It’s just odd that I’m like that…

4) “I want to know what love is/I want you to show me/I want to feel what love is/I know you can show me…” - Foreigner.  That song is so true of me & my life.  I want to know what & how it feels to be truly loved by someone else.  No one seems to be volunteering for the job, though.  Why, I wonder…

5) A funny way to end tonight.  The shocks on the truck are shot.  You bounce around in a truck like that anyway, now it’s just magnified   I flop around a bit, you could say.  So, what is my new theme song (Besides the Beverly Hillbillies, as per my mom)?  To the tune of Nancy Sinatra’s These Boots:

These Boobs are made for flopping/And that’s just what they’ll do/One of these days these boobs are gonna flop all over you…

Nite all, much love & many blessings….

 

Well, got the work done on the truck.  Not too expensive, but it took HOURS.  I brought the truck in before 10 am, and I got it back around 2:45 pm.  They had a problem with the parts store giving them the wrong belt.  Took like 4 tries, but they finally got it!  So I now have a brand spankin’ new Master Cylinder, a new radiator hose (Thank God, Goddess & every other deity! ), a new upper house & 2 new belts (alternator & steering).  She runs soooooooo much better now.  I brought her to Best Buy this afternoon & we’re going to try & install the Blaupunkt in the morning.  Wohoo!  I’ll finally have music too!  I’m excited!

Saw Justin today.  He drove me to the Stratus & we detatched the battery.  That was actually rather interesting as the battery was hidden under other components of the engine/CPU & could not be detatched directly.  Most of the battery was actually covered by the frame!   But, we detatched the lines to the jump start posts & then we were fine.  He also drove me to the bank so I could get the cash for Ray & the guys, and we  had lunch.  It was so great to see him.  We had a great time.  We talked about a lot of different things, we laughed, it was great.  Ya know what was funny, he told me he sees Mike all the time (since they both go to Hoftsra).  He said the first time Mike saw him (post-break up), Mike got a panicked look in his eye & quickly shyed away & since then he has not made eye contact with Justin.  Apparently, he tried to rush past Justin the other day & squeeze through an area that just wasn’t big enough & Justin nudged him a little.  LOL…I told Justin he needed to behave!  It was funny, though.  Justin looks REALLY scary & he can be a force to reckon with if need be, but in reality, he is just a big teddy bear.  He is such a great guy.  I am so blessed to have him & Dawn in my life.

The day actually started out melodramatically with the truck over-heating & me pulled over on the side of the LIE trying to pour antifreeze into the truck & no one stopping to help.  But, I got it, got it to the shop & now it’s all fixed.  I feel like I took the biggest first step towartds restoration on her.  I really want to get my ass to a junk yard now & start getting parts for the interior (which is what needs the most work): door skins, handle for the driverside window so I can actually roll it down, new dash, etc.  I may just cover the bench seat as it’s REALLY comfortable.  The only MAJOR thing that would need to be done next is to get a sheet of metal & weld it to my floor panel & cover the hole by the driver’s door.  Other than that, all the work that remains is strictly cosmetic & maintenance.  I REALLY hope I can get this truck to where I know she can go.  Most people see just an old truck that should be put down.  In all honesty, she runs REALLY strong & has so much potential.  She’s more than a blank canvas.  Most people who restore cars get cars that are 10 times worse than the truck.  I can do so much with her.  I just need the money to do it.  I stopped by my favorite Witch store to see if I could get a part-time job there, but no one was there   I’m going to go on a google search to search for all local occult/metaphysical stores & see if any are looking for part-time.  I’d much prefer that type of work to going back to a bar.  I just hope that this all works out, that it’s enough.  As I told Lauren, though, if after my 6 months is up, I can’t cut it & I’m running myself ragged, then yes, I’ll let the truck go.  As much as I don’t want to, I have to be rational & logical about this.  If it is financially & physically feesable, then rock on!  If not, oh well.  It was fun while it lasted.

Ok, I’ll shut up now   Hope everyone had a great day.  I myself am zonked!  I’m probably going to go to bed soon   Nite all!  Much love & many blessings!