November 26, 2004
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I need to go to bed, and I am tired, but...
I just can't help but feel like my road to recovery is like a 12-step program. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. I'm just trying to take control of my life again, to build up my self-esteem, to better who I am, to break this damn cycle of abuse, to mourn all the losses & tragedy I've endured this past month or so. I'm excited about therapy. I look forward to working in my work books & so forth, I just feel like I'm in some bizarre 12-step AA-type program. Is it ok that I feel this way? Perhaps this is my AA, I don't know. I'm confusing myself about it. Is it even worth contemplating to this extent? I just don't know. Any thoughts or ideas?
Comments (2)
sounds like you're doing the right things for yourself! maybe the process of recovery is similary, regardless of what you're recovering from? hee hee, you really don't sound confused, maybe you feel it more, but it's probably part of the process, don't you think?
either way. healing is not instant. it takes a lot of time and patience. there are a lot of things that you need to just let go of and leap over. i know of those things because i am going through that too.
every thing seems a jumble. i know that the Lord loves you, and seeks to pull you out of it.
be good darling.
- D
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