December 23, 2004

• Becareful what you think of.  That is my lesson for today.  I started realizing that as much as I love my job, I cannot do this forever.  It doesn't bring home the bacon, and what about my physical health?!  And let's not even get started on retirement....  Well, I mentioned that to a couple of people & I started considering all the things I want to do with my life.  And you  want to know what happened?  I was fired today.  Fired!!  For no obvious reason.  I was told that everyone ADORES me (the exact words used) & that I'm a hard worker, and a ton of other good stuff.  So, that makes sense, right?  Fire a GOOD employee?  Yeah, makes sense to me.  Sigh....Merry F'ing Christmas to me.  I'm trying to tell myself there's a reason for this, that I'm moving on to bigger & better things, but I'm pissed off.  I'm sad, tired...I'm feeling a myriad of emotions.  I didn't tell my mom...We have too much we have to go through this Christmas, I can't make a dramatic/emotional holiday worse.  I may tell her, but only if it flows right.  Otherwise, I'll tell her later.  Sigh....Why the hell was I ever born?  This life fucking sucks.  Oh well, whatever.  I have a TON of stuff I have to do, so I'm gonna get going for now.  I hope you are all doing better than I am.  Merry Christmas, much love & many blessings to you all!

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