January 16, 2005

• Change.  My life has been filled with it, and for the best, I think.  I just cannot believe some of things that are going on.  Things I'd never do before.  Between meeting Elaina & hanging out with her & her friends, going out with people from work, expanding meet-up, restoring the truck, joining a few car clubs, I was just talking to a meet-up member & we're going to host a party for her aromatherapy products.  This is ALL stuff I'd never do before.  I've been VERY open about my sexuality, the rape & the effects of the rape.  I don't think I've ever been more proud of myself.  I'm still working on the apartment, I'm about to go practice my guitar....It's not me.  Well, it's not the old me.  I amaze (and to some extent, scare) myself.  My therapist was talking about creating a new character, a new me.  And I am.  I am really starting to live up to the Star Dancer that is Namid.  I e-mailed a woman earlier about getting some grant money for my book.  I'm dressing myself better, taking better care of myself in every facet of my life.  It's sooooooooooo weird!!  It's a good weird, though.  It's just so strange how drastically my life has changed in such a short period of time.  Who would have guessed that something negative could result in the greatest positive changes in my life. 

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