Therapy was amazing…it really was.  Got good stuff going on.  The apartment is really coming alone…And I have a mission for myself when talking to these new jobs.  I’m gonna do it….gonna make myself stick to my guns.  I’ll keep you all posted as these things fall into place, for now, I’m gonna watch Dr. Phil & take care of some stuff here.  Be good!  Much love & many blessings to you all!

My sleep pattern has been really crazy…Off.  Seriously off.  I’m exhausted as I write this, but I’m trying to keep going so I can back on track.  I’ve been off since Saturday.  Not quite sure why, but that’s the way it is.

Just got home with the truck a little while ago…Had to replace all 4 tires.  One was completely shot (made for an interesting drive to the shop) & the other 3 were torn up from when Bobby & Jay tried to chain her on the hitched when I moved.  I was actually able to get the tires for $81 each, which is really good all things considered. 

Going out again soon…Getting my hair cut.  First time in over a year (I’ve been doing it myself.  Quite poorly, might I add)…and I don’t know what I’m doing, but it’s gonna be drastic.  The chia-head must go!!  I’ll see what I can do about pictures…If I can, I’ll try to show you a before & after…The problem is getting the after pic 

Well, I think that’s enough unimportant stuff for one day.  Me & my VERY tired & heavy eye-lids are gonna go.  Hope you all are well.  Take good care.  Much love & many blessings to you all! 

I had a nightmare last night.  About him.  This is my second or third within this past week.  It’s fuzzy now, but I woke up sweating & with my heart pounding.  It was difficult for me to convince my body to relax.  I don’t remember what exactly happened, but it was scary as hell.  It bothers me that I’m having dreams like this.  It makes me so much more paranoid.  I just don’t want this to  continue to haunt me like this.

Yeah, so I’m crazy.  I was supposed to work at my data entry job till 9 last night.  Stayed till about 10:30.  From there, I totally lost my mind…Cleaning!  My kitchen is beautiful now    I was in the middle of doing the litterboxes when I left for work, so I knew I’d finish that when I came home.  That turned into rearranging cabinets & my pantry, cleaning, arranging flowers, organizing….The list goes on & on.  By 1:30, I was cleaning the cats’ ears.  I also went to some websites Pam recommended to me & I was applying for jobs!  I was in bed, TRYING to fall asleep by 2.  I really had a hard time sleeping, and when I did, my dream was BIZARRE!  After I come back from work today (I’m supposed to leave at 5, let’s see if that happens), I’m gonna keep going…I have some big plans   

I just don’t want to be working at 2 am    I have a doctor’s appointment at 8 am tomorrow.  This is to get my referral to the neurologist, who I’ll be seeing on the 19th.  Despite my lack of insurance, I really want to get this ball rolling, I want an answer as to what is happening to my body.

Well, I’m gonna go.  Gotta shower & stuff before work.  I did 1,900 envelopes last night.  My goal is get to at least 3,000, maybe 4,000 today (Because it’s the weekend, I’ll be picking up from those 1,900, rather than starting from scratch).  I hope you all had a great time celebrating New Year’s.  Take it easy, have a great remainder of your weekend.  Much love & many blessings to all of you.