My therapist said yesterday how she’s never seen me so happy.  I still can’t get over this relationship with Jay.  I was not expecting to be in a relationship so soon…I expected it would be at least a year, if not longer.  And, Jay is so different.  He constantly checks to ensure I’m comfortable with things, that I’m ok emotionally.  We split the responsibilities, we take care of each other, and he has absolutely no expectations of me.  Nothing is demanded of me.  It’s such a change, he doesn’t ask anything of me.  It’s weird, it’s taking a lot of getting used to.  It’s not bad, just a big change.  I have a hard time wrapping my head around all the changes that have taken place over the past 6 months.  It’s so amazing, so many positive things have happened for a change.  It wasn’t easy getting here, but I’m loving every minute of it

Karma. It’s an interesting thing, how what energy we put out into the world eventually comes back to us. I should know. I am finally feeling my own karma. After giving constantly, and being treated like a doormat, I am now the recipient of a selfless person.

My life has changed so drastically in the past 6 months. The 10th was the 6 month anniversary of my rape. I never imagined that in 6 months my life would go from being nearly ruined to being on top pf the world. In the past 6 months, I have significantly climbed the business ladder and manage an up-and-coming animal hospital, I am going back to school, and I am in love with the most incredible man.

My job at Ambassador is a new one, but the responsibility is huge, and I love every minute of it, and I’m doing a damn good job.

I’m going back to school this fall. I’m going to get my BBA in business management so that I can go even further. I’m not going to school down here, I’m going back to NY. My family is in NY, and Jay is in NY. I need to be with him, this long-distance thing is just too hard. We have it all figured out in terms of when, finances, schools, etc. This should be good. It’s so ironic because Jay and I were interested in each other from day one, but Bobby got in the way, charmed into believing he was something he wasn’t, and the idea of “Jay and I” was lost. In October, Bobby raped me, and moved back to NY. I wanted to keep in touch with Jay, but was too afraid because of the connection with Bobby. Now 6 months later, Jay and I are the couple we were supposed to be. I guess if something is meant to be, it will happen. It is so wonderful – it is such a change. Jay is selfless and patient and understanding. We have always had an incredible friendship, and that is the strong foundation for this relationship. It is a new, and very wonderful place to be in.

For once, my future looks bright. Everything is going well, and I couldn’t be happier. The best part is, I am not looking at this bright future alone, my best friend and partner is right next to me.

I’ve been busy, not forgetful.  A lot has happened.  I’m working the new job.  It’s kinda crazy…It’s very difficult to manage a practice that is just starting up, but it’s a good challenge.  The only thing is, as tech AND manager, I am running myself a bit ragged, but it’s good.  It’s tough work, but I’m happy.

I’ve also started dating again…I was NOT expecting this, not so soon.  And the kicker?  It’s Jay, his former best-friend.  LOL…I just had to make a bizarre situation even more bizarre   We’re having a lot of fun, we’re happy.  The long distance thing is a bit of an issue, but we’re working that out.  As it stands right now, he is looking to come down here.  NOT live with me, but to be somewhere in the vicinity.  It’s kinda weird for me, that he is willing to make such a sacrifice, and to be so willing to compromise.  Everything has been on my terms, whatever I’m comfortable with.  It’s wonderful, but it is definitely going to take some getting used to   I was up in NY this past weekend to be with him, and I’m going up again this weekend to go to PA with him to meet his parents. 

So yeah…lots going on here.  I hope you are all well.  I do want to know what is going on with each of you.  Much love & many blessings to you all, and a very happy 29th b-day to a certain skinny white guy living in NY